The time has finally come the month is here and graduation is only 10 days away. I am really not sure what my feelings are on that. I am excited, scared, anxious, sad, and any other type of feeling you can imagine and I am not the one about to start on the path of life. I am going to miss the things that have become second nature to us but I figure it just means opportunities for new experiences with Raven and hot rod. Come what may is the song I hear from Moulin Rouge, regardless of what comes I have been blessed to know hot rod and to be part of his life and Raven's. Life is good.

NEW YEAR IS HERE

I am not sure what will come in 09 but if it has any resemblences to 08 it will be grand for my family. We have made another year and I love all there is for us in our quite homestead. Got to get ready for the graduation from HS and the beginning of college for hot rod. Not something I am exactly prepared for. My hopes for 09 better friend for Rave, the troops to come home, my family to be safe and healthy and for individuals to give a damn about the world and those of us who are here. Things move quickly in and out and we need to pay attention and enjoy the sunshine or we will miss the boat and all it carries. I guess that's enough on my thoughts for now.

Dec 26

What is this day for....work, play, relax or shop. Me personally it is a day to shop but hey I am working today. I must say that I would rather be doing anything but. I may shop tonight or just relax but I am going to replay Christmas Day over and over. It was great. I got really cool things new puzzles, calendars, and lots of bird paraphilnailya. No clue how to spell that word. I think though the best part of the day was watching the many episodes of LOST with hot rod and rave. We stayed in pjs all day and were just together. Those days are moving on quickly for hot rod is graduating and heading to college before I know it. People always say...me included...how we wish we could go back to when they were younger but you know what hot rod is going to do is grand and I am ready to watch, well gettin ready...I am really blessed to have all that I do and my family is fabulous.

self thought

I am here at Panera relaxing on a sunday and realizing that time goes by and people only really focus on themselves. I watched a family of 3 eat and leave their mess on the table my question is this no one served them whey do they think someone is responsible for their mess other than themselves. The direction of people as a whole is turning towards only self. I consider myself to be the servant type. I will help anyone out that i can, hold the door, tell you if your lights are on, and just anything else that means you are human. I hope that Hot Rod has the feels that Rave and I do. We are human...however I am not sure about the folks that sat across from me today.

the answer

THE POWER OF ASKING

We went to the beach and what a grand site. I have always loved the ocean, the sound of the waves and the power they possess is overwhelming to me. As I stated earlier this is a first for our family to be at the beach just the 3 of us. As we were walking down the shore looking at all the shells...Raven began to tell Logan about sand dollars, there were so many broken pieces but not a complete to be found. So as I walked along i said a silent prayer to the Lord above just asking for him to show me one, so that Hot Rod could have one. Last time I found was in 2000, when Raven and I went. So I am walking along and looking and waiting.....Rave says come on lets turn around and head back. So I turn thinking I should not I must keep looking but I turn and take no more than 10 steps and what do I see......yep a complete sand dollar about the size of a 50 cent piece. I pick it up and take to Hot Rod and say Thank you Lord for answering that prayer. I tell Logan that we may not go to church but I do not know how people can say there is not a God... I share the story with Raven and Logan with tears swelling in my eyes for now I have found for each of them a complete sand dollar....it was a great day walking on the beach with my family.

vacation....what is that

I have arrived at navarre beach with the family and i plan on having a great vacation. We have never come to the beach just us. We are in a cabin with one bedroom, a main room and a loft. We have fallen in love with the place, would love to stay a month but the dogs would miss us terribly. it is just great being here with my clan. The sand and ocean are calling so i must head out. vacation....what is that....a time to make memories with your family...nothing better